we had a lovely day yetserday. we started it off with going to church with a friend we had not seen in a long time. then the three of us headed downtown for breakfast at the broken yolk cafe. it was good.
later, philip and i headed up to north county for a graduation party and a birthday party. i honestly wasn't looking forward to these two things as much as one would think. i love everyone who would be at both gatherings. however, in the past six months or so, i've started getting EXTREME anxiety before going to gatherings with large groups of people. it's not as bad when i know everyone. but when i only know half the crowd or only a handful, it's definitely much worse. it's something that i'm working on, but it's caused me to opt out of a few occasions that i regret missing.
our first stop was a graduation party where my anxiety was getting the best of me. i knew two people for sure [the graduate and her brother]. other than that, it was her family and close friends. i was very excited to celebrate her and wish her luck on her move to med school, but i couldn't really think past all the strangers that would all turn and stare at me when we entered the house.
we finally got there and the only stares to greet us as we walked in were those of small children and their one chaperoning adult...ok, not too bad. we wandered a little further into the house to find everyone gathered in the living room as an audience. their attention was captive to the band performing [yes, no one even noticed us come in! ...relief] we found two friends to sit with in the back of the room [not the two friends mentioned before, this is good]. we all watched a very intimate and very sweet performance by the WONDERFUL Dan Mangan.
the graduate, leah, has an awesome brother! he got one of her favorite bands to come to her graduation gathering!! how rad is that?!
they gave an incredible performance! it was him on guitar and his bass player [upright bass, that is] in the living room of their home. it was such a fun performance where the listeners were forced to participate [in a fun sing-a-long kind of way]. if i ever get to see them perform again- i would be sooooo happy! and john definitely got major big brother points for that one!
our next stop was a double birthday party [papa and son]. by that time anxiety was gone and i had a great time catching up with people that i haven't had a chance to see in a while. it was a lovely day. also, i'm glad that i gave my anxiety a little slap in the face by actually going where it didn't want me to.
and now that you've gotten this far, you should go here and start with the song robots. its worth it. do it.
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